No, no, I don't need to "become" an artist. I just need to be diligent with what I've been given. But don't we all?
But even before that happens I have to finish straightening my own path to some God-mandated degree before I continue moving forward; otherwise I'll be wasting more time.
And it's not for the attention of other people. In fact I'm shamed I let myself get so off-track and so confused. Any act, any product, should only be to exemplify the true and pure nature of God. It needs to be completely selfless, and it'll be worthless until it gets there.