I'm rewording my last post (which has now been deleted).

The winds of change, which I have discovered along this trip, beckon me to cut the crap and behave like a more normal human being. It might be good to see some sensibility in my life and in my actions before I die.

on selling

You'll find a new customer
when they see something in your world that theirs in comparison lacks

time

I worked hard. I didn't take a break, I didn't even eat until the project was done. I needed to put a checkmark next to it and archive it off so I could get back to that strange place I'd just discovered.

That strange place was a place where not everything was completely, perpetually falling apart; it was a place where I could consider what was actually important.

The ability to consider is important itself, because without it how could I ever know I was spending my time wisely?

Time is precious because it is limited in quantity, but so potent with potential. Time is the currency of life, life itself.

What could you and I do with... pure time?

I observe, and I laugh a little to myself, only to realize how much people must laugh to themselves when they consider me.

right

Look babe, if you want to be right about something, sure, be right about whatever you want. Just don't complain to me when, at the end of the day, you still find yourself deeply alone.

philosophy

You know, I try not to apologize too much for myself anymore. I say and do stupid things all the time, and I wish I hadn't right after I have, but honestly, the proof is in my behavior... me. Maybe I should just wake up tomorrow and make my best attempt to be better?

What happens in the end? Do I get the girl??

Or do I even care anymore?