0 days: but still counting

With a thrust I rejected my previous evaluation and went back again. Maybe if I run a little faster, I can pull all of it off...

Zero day came and went over a week ago, and no one noticed, least of all myself. It just goes to prove, we know neither the time, nor the place...

11 days

OK, so it's my opinion then, that we shouldn't take inadequacy "lying down"—but then, why not?

Perhaps it's much easier to operate in the same ways as before. You know them, you know how to do them, and you know roughly what you're going to get out of them. Tomorrow isn't such a mystery. It's predictable, it's less risky, I can do it and I might be OK.

But I won't see the things I need to see unless there is a serious shakeup. It all has to be thrown to the wind, so that I can decipher what the actual problems are for myself, rather than listening to everyone else's guesswork.

Without all this distraction, when I am able to focus on the real problems at hand, then will I make real progress?

What do I want to see in my lifetime?

18 days: failure, or, excuse me ms. tran

Inadequacy is something I think we should not take lying down. There is a perceptible difference between those who give up and those who don't without the fight of their life

19 days

I find myself staring out the window a lot, now in the last two weeks of my time in this apartment,

Is this really happening? ... ?

I'm sort of in disbelief...

21 days

Not to be over-dramatic, but I'll probably die with the drawings they gave me, sitting on the table next to my bed or something.

I think it's pretty tragic that they'll never know how I loved them, and that they'll never understand the circumstances under which I had to leave—