We learned of Steve's death just minutes after it was announced.

As I considered it, the sky became darker, and the rain began to fall.

I sat for two hours at Ying-Yi's Mandarin-language Q&A session at MOCA. Think I was most inspired because I couldn't understand much of what was said. It left my brain a lot of space to think.

Why do so few people live how they dream of living, doing what they want to do?
Why is it so hard for people to plan out how to move around the obstacles?
What do I need to do to keep moving forward with all of this?
Why did it take me so long to ask myself these questions?

I do like working for the right clients, but at this point it has to be something more than just the man behind the curtain. It's not responsible for me to try to work without putting my name on it. It's not real enough to me anymore. I need to start producing on my own, finding the reasons for myself and producing. Not relying on someone else to tell me what to do. I'm not making real use of what I've been given...

Goodnight 台中

0 days: but still counting

With a thrust I rejected my previous evaluation and went back again. Maybe if I run a little faster, I can pull all of it off...

Zero day came and went over a week ago, and no one noticed, least of all myself. It just goes to prove, we know neither the time, nor the place...

11 days

OK, so it's my opinion then, that we shouldn't take inadequacy "lying down"—but then, why not?

Perhaps it's much easier to operate in the same ways as before. You know them, you know how to do them, and you know roughly what you're going to get out of them. Tomorrow isn't such a mystery. It's predictable, it's less risky, I can do it and I might be OK.

But I won't see the things I need to see unless there is a serious shakeup. It all has to be thrown to the wind, so that I can decipher what the actual problems are for myself, rather than listening to everyone else's guesswork.

Without all this distraction, when I am able to focus on the real problems at hand, then will I make real progress?

What do I want to see in my lifetime?

18 days: failure, or, excuse me ms. tran

Inadequacy is something I think we should not take lying down. There is a perceptible difference between those who give up and those who don't without the fight of their life

19 days

I find myself staring out the window a lot, now in the last two weeks of my time in this apartment,

Is this really happening? ... ?

I'm sort of in disbelief...

21 days

Not to be over-dramatic, but I'll probably die with the drawings they gave me, sitting on the table next to my bed or something.

I think it's pretty tragic that they'll never know how I loved them, and that they'll never understand the circumstances under which I had to leave—